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It's March. My birth month, and apparently my birthday was two days ago. It was the saddest birthday I've ever had. People were physically present, but they were like somewhere else. They were in different parts of the house. Nobody sang me a happy birthday song. Only me. I sat in front of my cake in the dining room, looking at it until I decided it was time to light my candle. I sang it with a smile on my face - just so that I would feel a bit better. But after that, nothing. I wasn't happy at all.

Another sad thing with my March is the fact that yesterday was the last day of my geography class, which was probably the best thing that could ever happen to me this semester. It was probably the last time I was ever going to see my crush who I'm so gaga for. I admitted it during our field trip, but since everybody was just having a great time, people just brushed it of - or so i think. But yesterday, I got to admit it again to her. This time, it wasn't just a simple "I like you." It was during a conversation over coffee we had during class (we went outside the classroom just to have coffee because we were sleepy). I just said it without hesitation since it was the last day of class and pretty much, things didn't get awkward. I wasn't really expecting anything about it but I couldn't understand her reaction because she kept saying, "Oh my God, grabe..." after everything I've been saying. I even told her about what I did for her on Valentine's Day and she said she felt bad about it. I couldn't feel it though; maybe because I haven't had any sleep making me a bit numb to emotions. After class we, our group in class, ate out for lunch. Everyone kept noticing me since I was too quiet for the day and I had my default face on, which was either being "suplado" or sad.

I kept thinking about her. I wonder if I'll ever get to see her again. Her college is just two blocks away from mine; it was really close. But then I thought why would I chase after her, she's not even interested in me. I guess yesterday was the day when I gave up on her. I still like her a lot and I really want her, but I don't think there's a chance that I'll be with her.

I'm surprised at myself for being this emotional. Usually I'm not emotional because of just a crush, but this is something new to me. Maybe I am in love with her. I don't know. My friends from our geography class invited me to this party on Sunday; just us friends. (since i was talking to a girl and i would keep referring to both my friend and my crush as her/she/etc., I'll just call my crush B from here) Anyway, she told me B was coming and that I should come too. I told her that I was avoiding B, and she asked me why. I told her I couldn't say anything else, and that it was a joke. But the truth is, I do want to avoid her. Seeing her is like a reminder of someone I can't have. Yeah, this is too much. I need to stop thinking about her this way. Let alone thinking of her.

I'll be going to a party later this evening. I hope my head gets cleared by then. I'm hungry.

Maroon Booters Kick Their Way to Victory!

[Take note that this entry is actually a reaction paper i made for one of my major subjects at school. I just found it rather amusing to post it. The UAAP Football Season 73 Championship was held at the Ateneo de Manila Erenchun Feild on the 27th of February 2011.]

It was only a matter of time when I was able to get into position and squeeze my sights through an excited crowd gathered near the side of the UP Football Team’s benches. The referee blew his whistle and the game started with UP pressing hard on UST for the first few minutes. As the game advanced, the ball kept bouncing, rolling and flying (…you name it!) back and forth the field. There was monotony and a bit of amusement for me, seeing heads turning from left to right again and again. It was as though the game was equally tied until Ayi Nii Aryee scored near the end of the first half. Another sensational goal, contributed by Jinggoy Valmayor, was made during the second half. I would say that the rest of the game wasn’t that well-played because most of the time UST had the possession of the ball due to bad passes and a rather weakening defense by UP’s players. Eventually, UST scored a goal by a penalty kick awarded to them because of a handball committed in the penalty area. UP geared up for another goal, which unfortunately failed when the ball hit the crossbar after the two teams wrestled for it in the penalty area. A lot of people were disappointed, but everybody became so hyped near the end of the game when a mad scramble for the ball occurred just outside UST’s penalty area. Now I wonder if the referee was in a daze or he was enjoying the show, but I together with a lot of people were pretty sure that UST’s goalkeeper stepped outside the box, which is illegal, right…? The referee didn’t blow the whistle. Another ridiculous thing that grabbed everyone’s attention, besides uncalled for calls (yes that is a pun, a horrible one if you must), was the annoyingly long injury time the referee allowed. Either he fails to look at his watch or he’s intentionally doing it to extend the time. I guess someone must’ve given someone a hefty bag of something. Nonetheless, the UP Fighting Maroons tamed the UST Tigers and sent them home meowing (yes, another pun!).

It’s very hard choosing who the “best” player is during a game. But I guess I have to say that the player with the most impact during the game was Jinggoy Valmayor. Besides being able to score one of UP’s two goals of the game, he assisted in the orchestration of the first goal made by Ayi Nii Aryee. Whenever he has possession of the ball near the goal, UST’s line of defense would compress and isolate him in an area, and bombard him with counterattacks; he even lured the goalkeeper to step outside the penalty area. His performance led him to receive the Best Striker (for his 9 goals) and the Rookie of the Year awards.

[So there you have it. I would've edited some of the sentences but seeing this as a "don't edit it, it's nice that way" kind of thing, I won't hahahaha :)]